February 25, 2001
11:54 PM
"Papa Was a Rodeo"
The more I listen to this the more I am confronted by the truth, that
I am bored silly by it. If I don't pay enough attention it can get by
on being sad-sounding, but if I pay enough attention, then I start
to piece together the lyrics, and find that I find them neither
interesting nor moving. Add to that the extreme (for this album)
length, and, well...
Hmmm. I'm not sure how well I can explain why the lyrics aren't
interesting. At first glance they just really just seem genuinely
not of interest to me - nothing to identify with, nothing particularly
inspiring about the craft that went into them, or the sound of the words.
This would seem to not be due to any songwriting deficiency, or anything -
I'm talking about the kind of lack of interest that you're just bound
to have for some things, through what you bring to them.
On the other hand... first of all, the tone of the lyrics doesn't really
mesh with Merritt's voice or diction. Second, the central metaphor feels
a little too abstract and strained. So maybe there's a good reason for
not finding the thing interesting.
11:35 PM
"Kiss Me Like You Mean It"
The little inconsistencies in this song make much, much more sense
when you read it, as per the notes, as being about a B & D
relationship. Oh well. Intentional fallacy can't win 'em all.
11:32 PM
"Long-Forgotten Fairytale"
I've been listening to this a lot lately but it took me until just now
to realize that there's a 4/4 kickdrum running through the whole song,
right from the beginning. It took me until last night, hearing it on
different speakers at the studio, to realize that there's what sounds
like a ukelele part in the midst of the choruses (though the notes
say John plays "classical guitar," so either his guitar sounds funny or
that part is still buried deeper in the mix). I think I mumbled something
earlier about how, despite their indie-typical production values, many
of these songs seem to contain all the important components of full-blown
"commercial" production - this thick-arrangement business is part of
that.
11:26 PM
"Washington, D.C."
Who would've thought the indie-pop scene would produce such a
patriotic song?
4:48 AM
"World Love"
Handler groups this, "Punk Love," and "Experimental Music Love"
together as genre exercises, strangely leaving out "Love is Like
Jazz," which is a genre exercise if "Punk Love" is. Of all the
exercises, this one seems like the most successful, though by saying
it's more successful than "Exprimental Music Love" I think I'm really
just saying I like "World Love" more.
In September I was curious about what exactly "circular" guitar
riffs were supposed to sound like, a la
afro-pop and its plunderers. Listening to this song without
focusing intently on the guitar part, I feel I understand "circular"
completely. When I focus, it falls apart, and the guitar line just
gets annoyingly repetitive. Thankfully, I am happy to dissociate
while listening - in fact, that's normal for me. So the song remains
pleasing rather than annoying.
There is a little tap-tap noise in the song that appears to be
intentional but which is oddly placed in the mix, so that if I
focus on it, I find it hard to stop hearing it as sticking out.
4:38 AM
"Promises of Eternity"
Again, with the notes: "It worked pretty well if you can tell
it's Tom Jones." Yup. Somehow I think the tympani push it over the
edge.
4:37 AM
"My Only Friend"
Man, there a bunch of half-assed Billie Holiday pages out there.
It's hard to suss out exactly how much of this can be considered
an elegy for Holiday, and how much of it is for the narrator.
4:24 AM
"(Crazy for You But) Not That Crazy"
I find it interesting how much of the record Merritt is willing to
give away - interpretively, I mean. Part of his schtick, I suppose.
I hate to keep quoting the notes
from the box set so much, but they really are quite apt at times.
DH: This song seems to do what you like best, which is to take
cliches at their face value. If somebody is crazy for someone, you
literalize that until they're actually crazy, but in this case it
seems like -- when you say someone's crazy for someone, you're
scarcely using a metaphor, as anyone who's been crazy in love can
attest. You actually feel like you've lost your mind.
Information
on Ganesh.
4:11 AM
"You're My Only Home"
Though it's only 2:16 long I still think of this as one of Merritt's
"longer" songs. I think it's because the arrangement is fuller. I
also don't make the "FUTURE!" associations with the synth sounds that
I do on similar-sounding sounds, not sure why. It may be that I am
focusing on the main, bass-part synth, but I'm not sure what difference
that makes. It does sound vaguely less FUTURISTIC, I suppose. I
probably associate deep bass frequencies with profundity. Which seems
eminently reasonable to me.
4:05 AM
"If You Don't Cry"
I have already taken note of the "an hour
goes by/she doesn't" lyric, but a little more: it's made better by
the fact that the second line is followed by a vocal-less measure of
music, before the lyrics resume.
It's used often enough in general that there really ought to be a name for the
noise here, on beats 2 and 4, that sounds like a cross between a drum
machine and a synth in very bad shape.
I would very much like to disagree with the thought expressed here
(the next line of the chorus, after the title line, is "it isn't love"),
but when I'm listening, I have trouble doing so.
The notes on this one bring to mind some ancillary things, so I'll
quote an extended passage.
DH: Speaking of methods of work, one of the striking things of "If You
Don't Cry" is the line "nothing gets done." You have a lot of laziness
in your lyrics. What are you doing?
SM: Somebody has written the titles of Fleetwood Mac songs in my notebook.
Oh, it was Michael. Sorry, I didn't hear you.
DH: That's all right. In "If You Don't Cry," "nothing gets done" is a
striking lyric. You have a lot of laziness in your lyrics, you have
a lot of songs about not getting out of bed, things like that--
SM: I never thought of that.
DH:--yet your output as a songwriter would give lie to the laziness
theory.
SM: Well, clearly never leaving your room is a major trope in my
life. One of the hardest parts of being a songwriter is that people
never believe you're working, because you're not physically working,
almost never physically working. At least as a novelist, you're near
a typewriter.
DH: Yes.
SM: People now only believe you're working if you're sitting at your
computer.
DH: Well, you sit at your computer more than a bunch of other songwriters.
SM: Yes, but when I'm working very hard I have a cocktail in my hand,
a cigarette in my mouth, and I'm staring off into space, and if I don't
want to be interrupted, it's hard to convince people that I'm actually
working hard.
DH: And you don't want to drink at home?
SM: Oh no. It's hard to write songs at home. If I look around my apartment,
I see the titles of books, and I don't want to write songs with the
titles of books. I really don't want to write songs with titles like
The Social Construction of Everyday Life. The Making of the
Atomic Bomb. Streetcar Suburbs.
So, the first thing that comes to my mind whenever I read this is
Goncharov's
Oblomov, whose protagonist has a penchant for laying in bed.
Come to think of it, so does one of the protagonists of O'Brien's
At
Swim-Two-Birds. Clearly, however, this is a theme that
needs to be explored more in literature and song. And that
doesn't mean solely more Spiritualized songs. Though that's not
a half bad idea.
The second thing: Merritt has just about perfectly described the
working procedures of both the mathematician and the philosopher, ha.
Except that mathematicans are generally not advised to drink while
mathematizing. I've not heard similar admonition given to philosophers.
Gee, I wonder why.
Interestingly, the focus here is on Merritt's work being songwriting,
apparently meaning the business of writing lyrics down. But clearly
he does a lot more than that, and while he could certainly write
a lot of the music down without literally hearing it, it seems that
there would be a bit of work involved with toying with the arrangements,
through actually playing with some musical instruments. Whither that work?
Stalled? Stalled?!
I'm making good time, Solinger. I don't want to hear any crap out of
you, Mr. Top 100 (oops 50) Songs
of the Decade.
February 22, 2001
3:58 AM
"No One Will Ever Love You"
One of the charms of this, which is probably one of my favorite
songs in the WORLD at the moment (realize, this is quite a privileged
distinction): the way the vocal delivery and lyrics thwart expectations
so artfully. The first line, "if you don't mind", is a phrase typically
followed by a statement of action or intent that the speaker has reason
to believe might not be agreeable to the listener. [Bet this is making
the song sound really fucking beautiful, right? Sorry, I'm in that mood.]
But it's not followed by that, here: the next line, "why don't you
mind?", turns the focus of the last sentence back from the expected
one (that is, the discourse meaning changes), onto the minding itself.
Also: "no one will ever love you honestly". That's how it's printed
in the lyrics, and though you would think the vocal inflection would
give enough information to parse the sentence unambiguously (deciding
whether "honestly" applies to "love" or whether it's supposed to
qualify the previous phrase as a whole - "really, it's hopeless").
But I don't think it does, and for me that makes it better, as if
it were something which looked differently when held different ways
in the light. See the old entry about
traditional Japanese haiku line breaks.
Other things I like: the drumming, the woom-woom-woom that runs
through the track, the guitar solos (?). I like lots of things about
this one.
This song is also one reason I don't think I would like to listen
to this album around other people. I have two reasons for that;
I think I can get to the other more topically later on. This one,
though, is due to nothing that special about the album itself,
aside from the fact that it's good. It's simply that I find the song
very affecting, enough that, if I am already sad enough, the song
makes me very very sad. I feel terrible (but notice, I am still
listening to the song...). I've only really cried listening to music
once or twice, and one of those was because I was happy (I think...).
I'm not really interested in finding out if I'll do it accidentally in front of
other people. This is the extreme end of my reactions, but I care
abou the other ones, too. I don't want to find myself looking all
dopey-faced or starry-eyed in public, or anything like that -
and if you don't know what I mean, watch people's faces at the
movie theater next time you're there, during a really "emotional"
part of the movie (pick one of the squishy emotions). I probably
already do it anyway, though. Luckily I have cultivated the ability
to look as if I am staring into the fifth dimension while walking
about with my headphones on, so maybe I just look like an acid
casualty instead.
I think about this sort of thing from time to time, but in particular
this time because last night, to my surprise, the cashier/bean slave
at the coffee emporium at which I studied last night played disc
1 of 69 Love Songs. So did I elect to test it out, listen
in public? No. To be honest, I was not in the mood for Magnetic
Fields. Especially disc 1, which as you might guess from the
entries up until now, I have recently spent a lot of time with.
A lot of time. In between Outkast songs over my headphones, though,
the Magnetic Fields didn't sound all that out of place in the shop.
I wonder if anyone else even noticed anything odd. (Why would they?
More on that later. Maybe the Gilbert and Sullivan garbage will be
good for something, after all.)
2:36 AM
"Grand Canyon"
An interesting note in the book for this song:
DH: [...] [I]t has a sort of similar fussy abstraction of cowboyness
that the Magnetic Fields seem to enjoy.
SM: Which is stolen from Laurie Anderson, who probably got it from
Benjamin Britten, I suppose. I love Laurie Anderson for being able
to write heartbreaking melodies with words that make fun of heartbreaking
melodies.
Ooops, he let his secret slip. But actually, it doesn't apply to this
song, whose lyrics at least don't detract from the song (not sure
if they're any great accomplishment or anything, but, hey - it's
the bigness to the sound that's important here - we're talking CANYONS;
there's kind of a soaring sensation, maybe?).
2:30 AM
"Very Funny"
I think the string arrangement rips off either Pachelbel's Canon in D,
or Vivaldi's "Four Seasons," but I can't remember and can't be
bothered with listening to Baroque music right now.
The ways I confuse vocalists on this record is a good sign of what
I really think of some of them. I always think Shirley Simms is
singing "Sweet Lovin' Man," rather than Claudia; I always think Claudia
is singing "No One Will Ever Love You," rather than Shirley. I
always think LD is singing "Very Funny," rather than Dudley Klute.
But come to think of it, I really only like the songs Dudley sings,
which also have more "pop" arrangements.
2:26 AM
"Time Enough for Rocking When We're Old"
He says he'd rather go dancing, but everything about the music betrays
him.
2:22 AM
"When My Boy Walks Down the Street"
We can talk about essentialism and identity politics all you want
(no, really, try me),
but at the moment I am of the opinion that, at base, love between
two people is no different whether the two people are of the same
sex, or not. I think that the different social standards and
beliefs and stereotypes associated with homosexual love vs.
heterosexual love can lead to very real differences in the
practice and overall experience of love, but I don't see why this
should vitiate the basic impulse involved, which need only be
something (don't ask what!) between two people, full stop.
Exhibit A: this song. Doesn't it basically sound like any other
typical love song? Have you ever sung along to a love song -
a "straight" one - sung by someone of the opposite gender? The same? And
had some kind of love-related emotion, not necessarily directed
at the singer or whoever they were singing at, but just, had it?
Good, that's what I thought. Case closed.
1:59 AM
"Love is Like Jazz"
Not that my difficulty in writing about it is the reason for my
brief lull in 69LS-related postings (I've just been very busy),
but this song has given me pause. Why?
In a very strong sense I group it mentally with "Punk Love", as
a genre song which does not take its genre seriously, or rather
treats it ironically in order to comment somehow on it. In
"Punk Love", as I said below, I think this worked out badly.
"Love is Like Jazz" is a bit more trenchant, though. Which is
where the problem comes in. Irony seems to me to be an element
of Merritt's music frequently-enough present that it's hard to
tell how serious he's being. He obviously enjoys deflating (exploding,
subverting, abusing, using sincerely) stereotypes, and often his
approach is to do something ironically, like the whole of "Punk Love".
Here the stereotypes are two: the stereotypical "coffeehouse" free
jazz, and the lyrics, which employ both stereotypes about love,
and about jazz. I'm not as concerned with the music - at best it's
cutsey to me, at worst it's just incompetent as jazz goes (in that
way, it's sort of reminiscent of what happens when bands try to
get "funky" when they clearly have no business doing so). Usually,
it's at least inoffensive; I like accordions.
So, the lyrics. Cliches about love that we get: love as a thing
that is improvised (the idea being, I think, that there's no
planning involved - people in love just respond to whatever comes
up as it comes up); love as a thing that people don't really
understand, but pretend to; love as repetitive variations on a
common theme (oh look, another music simile); love as really
awesome, and really stupid; love as depressing; love as deceptively
favorable or attractive; love as bearable despite its problems.
Cliches about jazz that we get: jazz as a thing that is "made up
as you go along" (I know I'm being more literal here, but here
I think the stereotype more literally follows the lyrics: that
jazz musicians simply make up whatever it is that they play on the
spot); jazz as music which flaunts its mistakes, and incorporates
them into itself; jazz as repetitive variations on a common theme;
jazz as really awesome, and really stupid; jazz as depressing;
jazz as "almost entirely window dressing" (which I read to be a comment
about the role improvisation plays in jazz, but maybe I'm just
being sensitive).
I know I didn't hit everything, but I think these are the main
ways that the two subjects of the title simile jump out. Some of
the lines don't fit one or the other subject that well, and the
'"Strange Fruit" with/and without wind chimes' line just seems to
be there for effect (though really I should consider the connection,
sometime, to "Strange Fruit"'s lyrics).
The problem I have with understanding the intent behind the lyrics
(and yes, I know this is at least the second time I've referred
to wanting to figure out the intent behind Merritt lyrics, despite
telling you, Fred, that maybe we shouldn't or couldn't for "Let's
Pretend We're Bunny Rabbits") is that I find the statements about
love far more believable than the ones about jazz. There's some
truth to the idea that you "make it up as you go along" in jazz,
but definitely not in the sense that people might think, of completely
determining each note on-the-spot (and I could talk for quite a
while about just that problem, but just go read Derek Bailey's
Improvisation for starters). And again, there's some truth
to the next idea, that jazz flaunts its mistakes. But in a very
real sense, it does not: there are lots of mistakes that can be
made in jazz. Those which are "flaunted," taken advantage of for
artistic effect, end up not being mistakes, really, but rather,
successful improvisation (and note that by saying this I don't mean
to imply that this is what improvisation consists in: it's just one
thing that can happen when one is improvising). Depending on the
idiom of jazz involved, there are some mistakes that just sound
like mistakes, and there's not really any capitalizing on them within
the idiom: like coming in at the wrong time, and playing a different
part than everyone else for a while, or playing out of the changes
for too long, or clamming a note that just sounds bad that way.
The line about "the same song a million times/in different ways"
can be read many ways.
OK, stop. Like I said, this song gives me pause. I change my mind
often as to what I think about it. Right at this moment, thinking
about the half-truth, half-falsity of the various statements made
about jazz, I am of the mind that the statements about love should
be understood the same way, as they surely can be. That makes the
song much more like "A Pretty Girl is Like...", so, see the
entry below for that song.
I'm not going to cover my tracks and delete all the bullshit above,
though, because inevitably I will change my mind soon, and I want
to keep all this stuff around, should I feel like finishing it - it
was enough of a pain to come up with the first time.
This, "Roses," and "Punk Love" are the songs I am most likely to
skip out of all three discs - I don't usually skip others when I'm
in my long-term-listening-but-still-not-wanting-to-hear-things-I-really-don't-like mode. Oh. And the Gilbert and Sullivan crap on disc 3. But we'll
get to that later.